♔Bukan Satu Kesilapan♔
Wednesday, April 24, 2013 | 6:42 AM | 0 love drops
Anyong peeps. What’s up? See the tittle? Yeah, Bukan Satu Kesilapan. Guess what? Sha, Nur Shahirah, dengan sedar telah melukakan seorang
insan yang ikhlas sayangkan sha, yang tunggu sha hampir dua tahun kot dan bagi
sha ianya bukan satu kesilapan. Mesti korang nak cakap cenggini “ Serius kau
kejam gila, sha. Ni mesti sebab si kreol tu lagi kan? Sedar tak dia dah tak
pedulikan kau? Kau ni tak hargai apa yang ada di depan kau. Kreol adalah masa
lalu. ” and bla bla bla =.=" But sorry, tekaan anda salah. Keputusan shera ni bukan
kerana si you-know-who or whatever yang ada dalam otak korang. Keputusan untuk
kecewakan insan tu, shera lakukan atas sebab shera sendiri. Serious, takde niat
nak kecewakan insan seikhlas dia. Again, sorry. I know that I would be the happiest girl in the world without feeling hurt, disappoint, sad, don't have to beg just for a little love or sympathy if I accept him. But the worst, still, i
can’t. Mianhae ;(
Aci tak kalau sha cakap sha takut one day, dengan izin
Allah, sha diterima masuk ipta, ipts or kolej kemahiran, jumpa mamat hensem entah apa, and I fall in love, then that guy tu serius, masuk minang, kawen terus. Then what about
him? Tinggal tergantung macam tu? I admit, everything that he have is perfect.
And neither he nor others wouldn't bear to let him down just what i’d did. But
at this age, 18, i have a lot of dream to become true one day ; continue study, being a lecturer one fine day and
waiting for a man that will ask me to marry him. Gatal kan? Teramat! So what?
-,- dalam otak ni dah takde cinta monyet bagai. Dah tak nilai lelaki idaman tu
hensem macam Lee Min Ho, seksi macam Woohyun, loaded macam Tengku Adam Kamil dalam novel The Wedding Breaker tu. I just want a guy that have some braveness to promise me that he will protect me, could make me proud of him, that could lead me to jannah, accept me for who I am and give me some strength to start a new life ; marriage life. Dan semua tu,
takde pada insan itu. *Demand gila kan?*
“ He’s just a boy, what else did you expect he have? ” Yes,
dia hanya budak lelaki, one or two years older than me and he’s gonna continue
his study in three or four months later. But he’s still a boy, not a man. As we all grown up, mesti kita ada fikirkan masa depan, matlamat yang ingin kita capai right? And i have some thought ; satu hubungan bukan sahaja
berlandaskan kasih sayang, cinta dan sebagainya. Satu hubungan yang terjalin
perlukan tanggungjawab, komitmen yang tinggi, kepercayaan, kesetiaan dan
kematangan. Macam mana sha dan dia nak handle hubungan kami bila kami sama-sama
membesar, sama-sama belajar tentang kehidupan? Dan apa yang korang harapkan dari sha bila sha
fikir dia akan jumpa ramai lagi perempuan bila dia sambung study nanti, bila
dia kerja. Dan korang rasa, suka, sayang dan cinta dia tu akan kekal if sha buka hati ni untuk dia? I know, even if it’s not him, sha tetap akan kecewa dan terluka kerana orang lain.
Dia hanya kenal sha, nilai sha, untuk apa yang sha ingin
tunjukkan pada dia. Bukan cerita hidup yang tak seindah khabar. “ You didn't give him any chance to get you
know better! ” again, yes. It’s all true. It’s me who didn't give him the damn
chance to know me better. It’s me who make this whole damn feeling being difficult.
But without a damn care, it’s me to decide who will be the person that i’m
gonna tell him about my whole life. Kerana itu sha lebih rela dia benci sha
kerana sha kecewakan dia daripada dia tahu yang sha terima dia hanya kerana
simpati. Masa lalu yang buat sha berdiri teguh sekarang. Alone without a man
neither boy beside me. And the past learned me enough to appreciate my own self
before others!
*Broken english and so whatever but I'm beautiful with my style :*
*Broken english and so whatever but I'm beautiful with my style :*
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